Mothers living with suicidal adolescents: a phenomenological study of their experience

Adolescents who exhibit suicidal behaviors have a devastating effect on their mothers, but unfortunately, the mothers' experience is often the hidden dimension in the family. Currently, there is a considerable lack of research into the maternal experience of living with a suicidal adolescent. This phenomenological study describes and enhances the understanding of what life is like for 6 mothers living with suicidal adolescents. The data were collected through unstructured interviews. Thematic analysis using van Manen's methodology identified six themes: failure as a good mother, the ultimate rejection, feeling alone in the struggle, helplessness and powerlessness in the struggle, cautious parenting, and keeping an emotional distance. From these themes, the essence, "multiple loss and unresolved grief," was captured. The findings have implications for nursing education, practice, and research. In the provision of quality family-centered care, nurses can be educated and guided in their interventions by phenomenological research that recognizes the importance of the maternal perspective in the experience of living with suicidal adolescents.