Practicing the Ideal Depressed Self: Young Professional Women's Accounts of Managing Depression

This article is based on a qualitative investigation of contemporary female subjectivities at the intersection of two particular identities: being a "young professional woman" and "depressed." Thirteen women working in both private and public sector roles in two major cities in Aotearoa New Zealand participated in semi-structured, in-depth interviews. Employing a practice-based approach to analysis, my aim was to explore whether participants' accounts are inflected by what cultural scholars call the "top girl" or "can-do girl" ideal and the implications for "recovering" from depression. I identified five identity practices which constitute the subject position of the "ideal depressed self" who (a) delivers no matter what, (b) puts on a brave face (particularly at work), (c) treats her depression medically, (d) looks after herself, and (e) works toward becoming more positive. A discussion of the discursive underpinnings, in particular, neoliberal and postfeminist rhetoric, highlights the harmful effects of this individualizing perspective.