The difficult process of autonomous choice: using I-poems to understand experiences of abortion-seekers in The...

While key barriers to abortion care accessibility have been established, little is known about the experiences of people having abortions in the Netherlands. Stories of individual abortion-seekers can help counteract stereotyping, diminish abortion stigma, and improve accessibility. This study's research question is: What experiences do abortion-seekers in the Netherlands have with abortion care and what new insights can the I-poem method of analysis provide? This qualitative feminist study used transcripts of semi-structured, in-depth interviews with abortion-seekers from previous research to create I-poems. Using a grounded theory method, the I-poems were coded deductively to validate previous findings, and inductively to generate new insights. The I-poems revealed that although abortion-seekers felt autonomous, their decision-making was complicated by doubt concerning their partner's views and/or suitability as a parent, feelings of shame, and a lack of support. The abortion-seekers were often slowed by obstacles in policy and care; waiting caused feelings of fear and panic and routine pre-abortion ultrasounds led to anxiety. They often did not know what to expect from their body or the abortion procedure. I-poems show how autonomous choice in abortion care is socially constructed rather than purely individual. Abortion providers must pay special attention to external factors complicating the decision-making process such as partner discordance (even in stable relationships) and anxiety due to waiting times and routine pre-abortion ultrasound. Future action on normalisation of information provided on all aspects of choosing an abortion is necessary to realise informed choice and reduction of abortion stigma.Plain language summary Abortion is a medical procedure that ends a pregnancy. In some countries, people can easily get an abortion. In others, it is illegal or difficult to access. In the Netherlands, abortion is accessible and legal before 24 weeks of pregnancy and can be performed upon request of the abortion seeker. This policy is often seen as liberal, as it allows people to make their own decisions about their bodies. Still, abortion stigma is present in Dutch society. Stigma around abortion refers to negative attitudes and beliefs that society has towards people who have had abortions or are considering having one.Research by Holten et al⁷ looked at how easy it is for abortion seekers in the Netherlands to access abortion services. The study highlighted that people in the Netherlands still face barriers to accessing abortion services. For example: the law and regulations regarding abortions and the fact that people had difficulty in talking about their abortion due to stigma.The abovementioned study gives a broad view on challenges in the accessibility of abortion in the Netherlands, but the individual experiences are not portrayed.The goal of this study is to learn about the personal experiences of abortion-seekers in the Netherlands. It aims to understand what it's like for these people to access abortion services and what we can learn from their individual stories by using a method of analysis called I-poem. I-poems are a type of poem created by the researcher by looking for sentences using the first-person pronoun "I" in interview texts. I poems show the personal experience or point of view of the person interviewed. This type of poem is often used to express emotions or share personal stories or observations.This study used interviews with people who have had abortions to create I-poems. The grounded theory method was used to analyse the I-poems in two ways: confirming what was found in previous studies, and also providing new insights from the data.The study found that the people contemplating having an abortion had a hard time making the decision to have an abortion because they had doubts, were worried about what their partner would think, felt ashamed to talk about it with friends and family, and didn't have enough support. They also faced challenges like having to wait for the abortion because of clinic schedules and laws and getting ultrasounds before the procedure, which made them anxious. It was also found that the people contemplating abortion were unsure of what to expect from the abortion procedure and how their body would react, which made the decision even harder.The study concludes that even when people felt in control of their decision, the decision-making process was still difficult. The decision is not just personal, but is also affected by society, partners, and healthcare policies. The waiting time and the ultrasound before the abortion made the process harder, and abortion seekers were not aware of what to expect from the procedure. More information and education on all aspects of having an abortion should be provided to help people to make better informed decisions and reduce the abortion stigma. Further research on experiences of routine ultrasound before abortion in the Netherlands is needed to improve abortion care.