The lived experience of aloneness for older women currently being treated for depression

A phenomenological study was conducted to answer the following question: What is the lived experience of aloneness for older women currently being treated for depression? Eight women from Northern Ohio composed the purposively selected sample. Transcriptions of each 1-hr interview were reviewed by use of Colaizzi's (1978) method of data analysis. The analysis identified two major experiences of self for all participants: aloneness in depression and aloneness in recovery. Five paired, and somewhat dichotomous, themes defined the essence of aloneness: (a) vulnerability versus self-reliance, (b) fear versus hope, (c) helplessness versus resourcefulness, (d) loss of self-control versus self-determination, and (e) identity confusion versus self-reflection. All the participants expressed profound feelings of moving between the five paired themes as they gained clarity of insight into their experiences of depression and recovery. Results of this study make a valuable contribution by providing important insights into the lived experience of aloneness among older women currently being treated for depression, offer direction in the assessment and treatment of these women, and serve as an impetus for further research.