Reflection on my mother dying: a story of caring shame

Christopher Johns1

  • 1University of Bedfordshire, England. chris.johns@beds.ac.uk

In this story, the author reflects on visiting his mother the day before she died, just a few days after her transfer from the general hospital. Previously, his mother had lived in a residential home for 3 years before stumbling and breaking her leg. Then she required hospital admission. Three months later, clearly dying, "they" transferred her to the nursing home. The story is an expose of poor care and the despair this caused for the family at such a critical time. The story is offered as a call for action.

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